It’s funny how things just happen sometimes. One day you can be doing your routine, or you can be doing nothing, or you’re just winging something, but there is something that can pop up. I mentioned this in my last post, but last month I had a first date with this girl I’ve been talking to, and since then we’ve had two more. All three of those dates have been, in my opinion, really good. See I’m not the kind of guy that likes to “shop around,” if you catch my drift. When I go into dating I think on the positive side: that there is a future of some sort. In the past I’ve never really gone past the first date, the ratio for that I think, before this current girl, is technically 50/50. In my opinion that’s not necessarily a bad thing. I prefer to know if something is worth each other’s time in the beginning, because there is nothing worse than wasting your time on something that goes nowhere. I think Einstein said something along the lines of doing the same thing over and over again and expecting a different result is the definition of crazy. In that sense going on multiple first dates and not getting past that, is something that one needs to look inside themselves and see what’s going on. Obviously, there’s nothing wrong with not goin on multiple dates with different people, if there’s no connection then there’s no connection, but if there is then it would be a no brainer to pursue more, right? See my biggest flaw is that I tend to make a bigger deal of things than what it actually is. That is why I will constantly give updates on my love life to friends, to make sure that I’m not falling into that trap. I’ve been called a hopeless romantic by many different people, and I’ve had multiple different feelings about that. Before, when I was younger, I used to hate that because to me it made it seem that there was no hope. After a while I came to terms what it actually meant. It meant that I cared deeply. And boy was that the truth. Sometimes I feel like I fall too fast (Chet baker reference here for you jazz heads). I’ve had friends tell me to be careful or to not move too fast, but to be honest I never really got why people say that. Relationships of any kind are a risks, so being careful sort of makes sense. Not moving too fast never really did though. All relationships are different so how could one move too fast if it’s not explicitly said by the other person. I am by no means an expert on relationships, but I have had a few, and from those I have learned a lot. I usually measure a romantic relationship with one question, is this person worth the hurt. I’ve said this in a previous post, but now it’s even more relevant. Getting into a new type of relationship is scary, for anyone really. I think it has to do with the finite amount of time we have in this world. I mean if you knew you had ten years left to live you would choose who you hang out with and who you go out with more carefully, no? I know I would. I’ll be honest I’m terrified of the possibilities of what this girl I’ve been seeing could be. Good or bad. The bad is self explanatory. If it goes bad then everyones time is wasted and a whole plethora of things. But the good? Whats scary about that? I’m glad you asked. If things go well then it means I have or I will open up and have become more vulnerable. Becoming vulnerable is one of the most scary things that anyone can do. When you lay your self bare, you either open yourself up to judgement or acceptance, I think it’s in human nature to expect the judgment. Which would make most people, including myself, scared of that aspect. However, the reward would far out weigh the risks. Though in early stages it’s hard to tell. That’s part of the game though. If it were easy then we would never get some of the greatest pieces of art, nor would people be truly happy, but most importantly if it were easy than everyone would just settle. Why settle? I think people settle because they are the most scared. They are so scared that not everyone is gonna fit their boxes, and it’s sad, I don’t think that’s picky, but if you know what you want then why go for anything less. I would hate to be the one someone settles for. If anything that’s what I’ m most terrified of. I don’t want to be the safe option. I don’t think anyone does. Risks are scary, but are also the most fun. They are also the most scary, but of you’re not taking a risk then what the hell are you doing?